Hello there :)
it has been a year since i last update my blog. and right now it is the last day of 2013. another year gone by just like that. since i didn't give any update about my life in the year 2013, i shall write up a short (maybe) summary of my life.

2013 was certainly not a good year for me and i really can't wait for 2014. it will be a whole new beginning, a fresh start! although my life seems like it's filled with downs, there are of course happy and exciting moments.

okay so lets start off with the terrible, frustrating and annoying moments in my life.

1) got back my A level results. really upset and pissed off with myself. looking at my results, it makes me feel like i've been wasting 4 years of my life in achieving such disappointing grades. believe it or not, my parents still don't know my grades. i just cant bring myself to tell them. they expect so much more of me and i feel like i've disappoint them.

2) i applied for school which doesn't really fit with what i want to be in life. maybe i made a hasty decision or it could be because i do not have a clear direction of what i want in life at that point of time. i took diploma in psychology back when i was in MI but stopped halfway due to A levels (regret making this decision!). so i though of continuing it in SMA but turns out i cant continue from where i stopped so i had to take certificate in foundation studies (it's business related and i hate business stuff) first, then the diploma. well this whole thing basically waste my time and  money. i regret it so much but i try to be optimistic about it.

3) failed my driving test twice! TWICE! can you believe it? the first round i failed because i hit the kerb while moving out from parking. the second round i hit the kerb too! but this time it happened when i was reversing into the parking lot. it was so frustrating that i cried when the tester was still beside me. sigh.

4) my family had a major breakdown. months and days goes by with huge arguments and fights. a really depressing and upsetting period for me. but alhamdulillah everything now is back to normal. i don't want to put my hopes up high but i really pray that we wont have to go through that torturing process again in 2014. prays hard that Allah s.w.t will bring happiness and peace to my family and protect us from slander and evil doings.

okay moving on to the good stuffs in 2013!

1) i had the opportunity to work in a career field that im interested in! and that is a pre-school teacher!! it was such an amazing experience despite the kids being so so annoying and stubborn at times. but still, they are can be so adorable and cute! some people doubt me when i told them that im a pre-school teacher. cause you know pre-school teachers are usually and supposed to be loud, enthusiastic, outspoken, hyper and crazy (in a good way) which im really not. but hey i am trying my best to be all that. its just that my low self-confidence and self-esteem is in the way. i just need to figure out ways to break away from that (actually i do know of some ways but i need to confide in someone first which i don't know who).

2) i guess being able to drive despite failing my tests is quite a good thing already.

3) honestly after going through all the business modules, it's not that hard as i though it would be. i even did pretty well for my assignments and exams! so for ideas & critical analysis i've got distinction, high distinction for economics, credit for accounting and distinction for management. i really am happy about it! :D

4) i have finally removed  all four of my wisdom tooth! it's a really painful process but it's all worth it! next up, BRACES!

5) recently dad gave us money to go shopping! so the four sisters went shopping together at Bugis and bought quite a lot of pretty clothes. oh and in June, i went shopping with my sister and it was my first time i actually buy clothes with my own money! im quite thrifty if you don't know.

6) this year it's quite a difficult year to have outings with my family. even having lunch out at a restaurant is quite difficult cause most of the time we do take-away. i love being with my family and i love just going out, spending time together even if it's just a lunch. so im grateful that this december, we spent quality time with each other quite regularly. going johor, watch movies, shopping, expensive dinner at a place which we haven't been to for the past 5 years.

7) oh! how can i forget! we brought kiko, a kitten into our home! the kitten is my sister's advanced birthday present from her friends. she's just adorable. initially my parents didn't allow bringing the kitten home, but then they gave in to us. so we just have to be a more responsible daughters and owner, especially my sister. brownie on the other hand didn't dare to step into our house ever since kiko came. she's now an adult and so big. i missed her but whenever i tried to touch her she didn't let me. sobs. it's okay i understand.

well i think this sums up my life in 2013. it's such a hot mess in the beginning but at the end of the day, it's a learning experience for me and i learnt a lot about myself. hmm so i guess 2013 it not that bad at all huh. anyway 2014 is 6 hours away!! i will write up my resolution tomorrow so see you then! ;)

love, Syafiqah